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|Letter To My Former Shrink
|11.30.04 (10:41 pm) 
November 23, 2004
Dear Dr. Do-nothing-but-doze-off-w hile-i-pour-out-my-guts-a nd-the-moolah-rolls-into- your-bank-account,
is a request for you to send me what medical records you have in my
name; either originals or copies. I'll need these ASAP, in case I have
to see a judge to keep my SSDI. Also, since my patient history with you
has ended some time ago, I'd like to have complete access to these
records. There is more (please bear with me):
I'm still looking
for a new therapist, after more than two years without one. This is
causing me much anxiety, in light of the recent letter from Social
Security, for re-evaluation. While you gave permission to use your
name, there was actually no place on the form to include that, except
under "additional comments". The form asked if I'd received any medical
care in the last two years...and my honest answer was "no". But under
"additional comments", I stated that the last doctor I saw was
yourself, then wrote your name and business phone number.
only other information requested on that form, was my type of
disability...which I listed as borderline schizophrenia,
mania-depression, and anxiety attacks.
On our last meeting, you
said if I'm ever in need of support to stay on SSDI, you'd help me. I
was therefore expecting you'd compose an appropriate letter that I
could enclose with my re-evaluation form. Since this is not what has
occurred, I'm in a more difficult (and nerve-wracking) position to
defend myself. In order to be as well prepared as possible, I therefore
require the complete medical file (or copy thereof) that you have on me.
is my hope, of course, that I'll also have the backup of a new
therapist by the time I have to act on my behalf (should it come to
that). Maybe I'm overreacting; but I am worried that my admission of
not seeing a doctor in more than two years may put me through a most
I was too anxiety ridden on the phone with
you, to describe the form, and ask in what way using your name would be
most effective. Since I have no way of contacting you by phone, other
than claiming an emergency, I am also nervous about getting back to
you. (Seems that leaving you a message never results in a response!)
Fortunately, your answering service provided me with your new office
address; so I wouldn't have to go through that again.
call me to affirm the mailing of my records...or I can pick them up at
your convenience. I do not want to make another "emergency" call in
order to reach you again, out of respect for your own client relations.
But I will have no choice, if you don't get back to me within a
reasonable time...which I believe is by December 1, considering the
semi-urgency of my own situation.
I am eager to move on with my
volunteer work in the political sphere...having just completed three
months with Every Vote Counts. But first, I have to get this latest
challenge by SSDI out of the way, before I can devote my efforts to
fighting the good fight. Facing possible homelessness is no pleasure;
and very anxiety-inducing, to say the least.
UPDATE: My former shrink replies (goddess bless 'im)!
|Quacktivism In Action
|11.29.04 (9:46 pm) 
"Quacktivism" is a term I coined for "queer hacktivism". I've proposed
numerous times to our queer community over the years, hacking as an
important tool of civil dissent. See my piece, "Guns Won't Save Us;
Which has also been posted to Usenet. Click here to view that thread.
recent virus called "Gay Worm" is apparantly the first among many
quacktivist strategies about to flood cyberspace. Not that I
orchestrated any of it; just pointing out an early, and effective,
strategy. Personally, I couldn't hack my way out of a virtual paper
I also suggested that forms of psychological
(bloodless) terrorism be incorporated into our arsenal of effective
dissent. Read on:
Italian Senate Shut Down By Gay Computer Worm
by Malcolm Thornberry 365Gay.com European Bureau Chief
Posted: November 24 2004 12:01 am ET
(Rome) The Italian Senate ground to a halt Tuesday as a virus
wormed its way through the upper house's computer system
flashing gay pornography every time a terminal was accessed.
Computers in the Senate chamber and the offices of every senator
were infected. The system's firewall was helpless as it was
overcome by the fast spreading worm.
No matter what Senators or the staff did all that would come on
their computers were hard core gay pictures.
The attack was in apparent retaliation for the firing of an
assistant to the Senate's vice president, after images of him
attending a gay party in Rome surfaced.
Dario Mattiello was spotted by a photographer at a gay nightspot
in Rome. The pictures of Mattierllo were turned over to Sen.
Domenico Fisichella a member of the ruling ultra conservative
National Alliance and a close associate of Prime Minister
The computer attack was "very sophisticated" said a Parliamentary
security official. It was first noticed Monday night and by
Tuesday morning the worm, one of the many variants of the Rbot
worm, had infected every computer in the Senate system.
The Rbot family of worms allow remote hackers to gain access to
infected computers, steal information and even - in some cases -
monitor computer users
Tuesday night computer technicians were attempting to restore
order to the system. Police are trying to determine the source
of the worm but admit that it may be an impossible task.
Franco Grillini, an MP and honorary president of the gay rights
group, Arcigay, said that Mattiello's firing was "in blatant
violation of the most basic liberal values of contemporary
Last month Berlusconi's Europe minister, Rocco Buttiglione, was
rejected as a candidate for the European commission for justice
after branding homosexuality a sin.
Sen. Fisichella called the computer attack an act of terrorism.
|11.23.04 (10:33 pm) 
read my response to the author of the mailing list (which starts right
after this paragraph). You won't grasp it all, however, until you've
read this entire message. Suffice it to say: my visions are coming to
fulfillment, with all the world as witness! Hope is definitely on the
--begin my reply:
Okay John, I downloaded those
four adobe files...and created 16 separate *.jpg files (for each page),
zipped together and uploaded to my website:
3.3mb in size. Glad to help out!
never let the S.F. Examiner forget the time they received money from a
Christian group to print a full-page anti-gay ad, back in 1998. It's
there on my website, at:
saw all this happening in visions, back in 1996, as a direct gut-level
response to Clinton's signing DOMA. I predicted a global anti-gay
holocaust, and civil war in the USA, with its collapse, and emergence
of world's first gay nation, Athenia (formerly Northern California).
I can PROVE my predictions, that they are not cheating via
hindsight...because I posted them on Usenet over the years. And the
dates on my articles, I cannot alter. I've created a convenient Google
database of all my newsgroup participation, so those who want to check
out my veracity, and legitimacy as a visionay; can do so with ease:
that's what my website, "Final Testament" is all about. I knew that at
first, most would view my predictions as way over the top. But now? No,
I've been right-on all along...to my own amazement.
visions don't stop with tragedy...they continue with our queer
liberation--in our time--paving the way to a better world. If you'd
like to find inspiration, hope, and a blueprint to how we can get
through this with minimal misery, I invite everyone who is queer and
allied to queers, to my website, "gay-bible.org".
consider myself a pagan shaman, steeped in anthropological wisdom. But
I don't claim to have found this path intentionally...it's a gift,
albeit a great one, which was thrust upon me some years back. As a
result, a long part of this path was being villified and mocked for my
visions. Just goes with the territory...but now, that is falling to the
wayside, and more and more people are appreciating my steadfast
devotion to my visions, ideas, and queer rights.
SinQueerly, Zeke Krahlin
a.k.a. "Jehovah's Queer Witness"
Zeke's friends mailing list: your e-mail address has been
concealed by BCC (blind carbon copy).
----- Forwarded message from John - THE LIST
Date: Tue, 23 Nov 2004 20:58:34 -0800
From: John - THE LIST
Subject: ALERT: Wash Post supports anti-gay magazine
========================= ========================= ==================
In This Issue:
- ALERT: Washington Post supports anti-gay magazine
ALERT: Washington Post supports anti-gay magazine
NOTE: PLEASE FORWARD THIS NOTE TO YOUR FRIENDS BY EMAIL, TO YOUR
FAVORITE BLOGS, ETC. THANKS, JOHN
The Washington Post last Friday published a magazine ad supplement,
bought by religious right groups, that is one of the most bigoted
homophobic things I have ever read. I am astonished the Post would
print this filth.
In it you learn things like the fact that sexual orientation isn't
genetic. Why? Because if it were genetic it would have to be passed
by gay parents who don't have kids! Putting aside a number of holes
in that theory, there's the more general scientific point about
recessive genes. My point is that this filth isn't even
scientifically correct, and the Post is publishing it. I didn't
realize the Post had no problems publishing junk science targeting
minority groups. Huh.
What's more, the entire publication is based on race-baiting. It is
CLEARLY written for the black community in an effort to piss them
off against the gays. Funny, but you'd think the Post would have a
problem with a scientifically invalid publication whose sole intent
was to enrage one minority community against another. But no.
DID YOU KNOW WE DIE WHEN WE HIT 41?
Oh, and it gets better. The publication informs you that gays die at
the age of 41. Yep, all of us. What they don't tell you is that this
little "study" was conducted by Dr. Paul Cameron, an anti-gay nutjob
who has even been disowned by the religious right (let alone he was
thrown out of various medical associations). But does the Post have
a problem publishing junk science that suggests that certain
minority groups are inferior to others? Not at all!
Oh, it goes on and on. Then concludes by invoking Martin Luther
King's memory to attack us. Which is again an outright lie since
Coretta Scott King has already said that the gay rights movement is
part of the larger civil rights movement her husband embraced.
Well, I'd complained about this insert on my blog and a lot of folks
contacted the Post. Unfortunately, the Post has now publicly
defended the ad. Saying, among other things, that it's not hateful.
THE POST SAYS THE AD IS NOT HATEFUL AT ALL
Their response to the virulently anti-gay magazine insert they
distributed with last Friday's Post is, quite simply, appalling. Not
to mention intellectually dishonest. The way they trivialize our
concerns, suggesting we're simply mad because the religious right
disagrees with us about gay marriage! Yeah, it had nothing to do
with the fact that they printed outright lies about us all dying
young, based on studies by a quack kicked out of the major medical
associations 20 years ago. Among the man's other studies: one that
says 17% of gay men eat feces. He's also the guy who championed the
"gays are pedophiles" myth. But no, the Post thinks our concern is
our fear of debating gay marriage. Right.
CALL THE POST
And now this means their ombudsman will likely write some hideous
story in next Sunday's Post about how this pamphlet isn't hateful at
all! Please feel free to contact him again after reading the update
below (his contact info is at the bottom of this email), and also
contact Eric Grant, the Post's Director of Communications Affairs.
The number is 202 334-6466. These guys need to get the point that
this isn't about gay marriage. It's about promoting Mengele-esque
science that was debunked 20-30 years ago. Would the Post permit
someone to run ads with equally quack science attacking blacks and
READ THE POST'S DEFENSE OF THE AD
A few of the Post's responses:
- Marc Rosenberg, manager of corporate and public policy advertising
for the Post. "The key issue is that it is clearly identified as an
MY RESPONSE: No, the key issue is not whether it's clearly
identified as advertising. The key issue quoting fallacious
"scientific studies" proving blacks are inferior to whites and
therefore not deserving of civil rights. The Post wouldn't. Hell,
the Washington Post wouldn't even publish my online ad going after
Dick and Mary Cheney because it included a cartoon-swear-word - you
know, #^$&* Yes, cartoon swear words were too much for the Post,
even though it was clearly an ad that I paid for, but saying that
gays die at the age of 41 while straights die at 69 or 75 is a-okay.
- "We will not allow something hateful to go in the paper," Post
Publisher Boisfeuillet Jones Jr. said, indicating he did not believe
this incident involved a hateful message. "Gay marriage is a public
issue and matter of public debate, and we believed its point of view
has a right to be expressed."
MY RESPONSE: Not a hateful message? Really? How do you feel about
the studies showing blacks to be phsyically inferior to white
people? Ads for skin creams that can make black people white, making
civil rights legislation unnecessary since black people who choose
not to use the cream have "chosen" to be black? Any views on
Hitler's scientific theories on Jews? What an absolute crock to
suggest that the problem with that pamplet is that it simply "talks"
about gay marriage. The problem with that pamplet is that it
promotes Nazi-esque quack science claiming gays are somehow inferior
physically to straight people and therefore don't deserve civil
rights. For the Post to suggest otherwise is intentionally
intellectually dishonest. They know damn well what our complaint is
- Post Ombudsman Mike Getler: "They might have insisted more that
this be in a format that was clearly not a magazine. You could argue
that the disclosure could have been larger. But the Post did not
commit a sin by accepting it."
MY RESPONSE: Ah, gotcha. So the trick is that David Duke just needs
to use a really large font that says "THIS IS AN AD" when he runs an
ad-magazine denouncing your black and Jewish readers as racially
inferior. That's really your position? Because you're about to
inspire someone to raise some cash to run such an ad. And if you
kill the ad, you're going to get a civil rights law suit. And if you
run the ad, you're going to have a riot from DC's black community on
your hands, and no more black subscribers.
SO THE POST WOULD PUBLISH AN ANTI-BLACK OR ANTI-JEWISH AD?
Yes, it was quite gracious of the Post to ignore the question of
whether they would print an attack on affirmative action (a valid
public policy discussion) that included passages from the Bell
Curve, the 1990s book that argued blacks were less intelligent and
thus committed more crime, etc. Bet the Post would NO PROBLEM with
that kind of logic being printed. Or are lies about those inferior
gays all dying in their 40s somehow less offensive than lies about
blacks all being stupid?
TAKE FURTHER ACTION:
Contact the Post's ombudsman, Mike Getler. Try to explain to him why
you consider this flyer (below) hateful, and be sure to ask him how
the Post would feel about a similar ad about Jews or blacks and
their physical inferiority to other races and peoples, and how that
relates to those minorities not deserving civil rights:
- (202) 334-7582
DOWNLOAD A COPY OF THE AD - IT'S THAT BAD
1. Download a 1.2 meg file of the entire 16 page magazine here. This
server is much quicker, and you can download the entire magazine at
once (albeit a blurrier version) thanks to our friends at
RawStory.com: thelist.c.topica.com/maacT1mabb0iSbNPlIBea ehnyv/
2. Download the individual pages here (4 pages per link - 16 pages
total), still as pdf (I need jpgs of these if anyone can help).
These are from a FASTER server, so should be much easier to download
(thanks to FrankenHooker.com).
If those links are slow, try these as well (Thanks to DuGard.org):
You can find this alert online here, with hotlinks you can click on
to download the flyer, click emails etc
Use this link to subscribe to THE LIST for free
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----- End forwarded message -----
|Letter to the Dems, Letter to Pagans
|11.10.04 (8:13 am) 
MY LETTER TO THE SF DEMOCRATIC COUNTY CENTRAL COMMITTEE
November 10, 2004
for your phone calls. Eight people showed up, including myself. Indeed,
1844 was locked. Owen showed up, and offered to moderate the
group...where we went to the LGBT Center for our meeting.
a couple people (whom I never met before) were extremely hostile
towards my wish to forward gay rights in some way, via the Democratic
Party. Others joined in and treated me like a child, for my pro-gay
stand. So I simply walked out.
Here's what I'd like to do, volunteer-wise, within the Dem Party (if at all possible):
Work in some capacity to forward Gay Rights. For example: fighting the FMA, and other immediate threats to our sexual minorities.
I realize there is likely to be a major schism
in the Dem Party over the gay issue...and "Gay Mecca" is not immune to
this. I was aware of this before even joining EVC. Thus, I'm also aware
that I may not find the kind of activism I seek, in any partisan body.
I believe that Dems will benefit immensely, by incorporating a very
aggressive, pro-gay stand. To put the gay issue back in the closet, out
of fear of losing support, is, however, a big mistake IMO. I want to be
one of those Yellow Dogs who plays watchdog on homophobia within our ranks, in order to put an end to gay-baiting within our own party.
am very angry and motivated to make this change in favor of queers
being more respected and included in the Democratic Party's new agenda
that is now taking shape. Yet some in the meetup have labeled me
overly-zealous...when that same passion for their causes is not labeled
as such, and applauded.
I believe my type of zeal is what's
necessary to breathe new life into the Dems. But if you can't find a
place for me at the present time...no problem, I just won't work within
a party framework.
I have many ideas on empowering the queer
community, including various froms of civil action (including dissent).
What I need is an anchor, a center of stability, to get my projects off
the ground. Projects which I intend to be group efforts, as a way of
including the disenfranchised within the queer community.
I think you have a clear idea on what my goals are, and so I'll stop blabbing for the nonce.
Vote for Zeke in two double-oh eight,
Or right-wing goons will seal your fate!
MY LATEST APPEAL TO PAGANS
Date: November 10, 2004
Subject: My prophecies fulfilling
again, sister/brethren pagans/shamans (and alternative/progressive
spiritual groups and believers in angels, unicorns, faeries, trolls and
things that go "Doh!" in the night):
Some of you are already
familiar with who I am: Zeke Krahlin, gay activist who regards himself
as a gifted shaman of the Pagan tradition. (The only form of
Christianity I regard as worthwhile, is the Gnostic variant...that is: those Christian groups that regard other religions and world views as equally valid and reverential as their own.)
past years, I've told of my visions, describing a fascist takeover of
the United States, with a rapid devolution into anti-gay holocaust.
These visions came to me as a direct impact of Clinton signing the Defense of Marriage Act
(DOMA) in 1996. But until recently, my visions were regarded by most as
sheer fantasy. (There were a few, however, who respected my statements,
and understood where I was coming from. To those online amigos I say:
"Thank you from the bottom of my heart; for you sustained me when
others denied me even a crumb of bread or drop of water.")
You need not take my word for my claims of accurate predictions. I've
posted them to newsgroups on a regular basis, since 1997. And used
Google's handy usenet database, to create a record of all my usenet
participation since that year. Here's the URL:
So it will be a simple procedure to track down when I originally posted my visions.
absolute faith in my visions, I put my reputation on the line, by
freely reporting them in various relevant newsgroups. Now, I've
returned to not say "I've told you so" (which I just did,
neenerneenerneener), but to remind folks that some of my shocking
predictions have come true. Look at who our president is! A president
whose first action will be to outlaw gay people by pushing an amendment
to the Constitution, to ban gay marriage. Is holocaust still an
outrageous likelihood, to you? Civil war? Which I've predicted as a
direct result of sexual minority issues. Gay Rights shall be the
bellwether of change across this globe. Allow me to give a quick
encapsulation of my predictions for the near future:
likely promote the anti-gay marriage amendment during this Holiday
Season. This will read as a green light for homophobes everywhere, to
cast us from our homes, our jobs, our towns, and so on. Dubya will
declare sexual minorities an imminent danger to Amerikan Hetero Fambly
Valyooz. Thus begins the Holocaust II, with gays the primary target.
Quickly followed up by Jews, Pagans, Handicapped, etc. etc. But they
are also partly to blame, by not standing up--often enough or numerous
enough--against homophobia within their own ranks, when they should
The sane part of the world will see the US an immediate
threat to this planet's survival...knowing that once a dictator starts
bashing gays, it's not long before he begins blowing up bombs around
the world. So these sane nations (which may include China, Russia,
Brazil, and Cuba) will group together quickly, and become vastly more
powerful than the US. They will dismantle our government, that the USA
will be no more; this grand experiment gone awry, and become too
hazardous to allow to strive further.
With that, new nations
shall be carved out of the former USA...including Athenia, world's
first gay nation (with me for their first President).
then happen, is the restoration of Amerika piece by piece...with
Athenia remaining a nation unto itself...a beacon for sexual minorities
to follow if they seek refuge.
I now witness my visions of
dictatorship and civil war/holocaust unfold. Which affirms their truth,
and the resulting success of sexual minorities, shown in the visions
And: Pagans shall also play a major, major role
in world revolution...bringing sanity, compassion, and diversity to
Amerika. (But they do still have a problem with their own homophobes,
which they must do their best to condemn, or even drive out of their
groups. And that is why I make my gay presence known from time to time,
in pagan/shaman groups.)
And women's rights.
But it will be the Gay Issue that will trigger global revolution, which then will open doors of liberty to pagans and women.
only "flaw" in my prophesies, seems to be that I have my time line too
compressed. The visions can be so empowering, that in my enthusiasm to
see them manifest, I want to believe they'll happen much sooner than
the visions really show. I thought the anti-gay holocaust would start
the same year I had my first vision of it: 1996. But now, it's obvious
that should this holocaust go down, it is likely to be started by Dubya
in the beginning of his second term.
Every minority needs to do all it can to cleanse its people of homophobic attitudes.
This is a most urgent karmic matter; yet those homophobes remain that
smirk at my declaration, in their attempt to discourage others from
considering my words. Which only proves my point: that Pagans are not
immune to homophobia. Indeed, it's still a major infection for them (as
it is for most other non-queer groups). Albeit, a lesser percentage of
homophobes identify as Pagans, than as Christians...say: 35% for Pagans
and 85% for Christians. But that 35%, while smaller than Xian zealots,
is nonetheless too large a number to be acceptable within any civilized
Any (non-queer) person or group that persists in
maintaining homophobic viewpoints--or continues to look the other way
when other members speak anti-gay slurs--or pretends they have no
problem with gays, they just don't want them around...will soon wind up
paying a terrible price for this bigotry.
Evil people--and this
includes any and all homophobes--are soon to get a taste or their own
medicine. So to our Good Faery-Folke:
Despair ye not, for surprises await the Religious Reich.
Some will fall into bear traps, while others dine-a-mite.
can good Pagans do to lessen homophobia within their circles? Speak out
against it, on a regular basis. Include a no-queer-discrimination
clause in your articles or bylaws. Demand the same penalty for anti-gay
slurs and actions, as you do for expressions of racism, female bashing
and child molestation.
Some of you will be derided, even
ostracized, for your courageous stand. There will be kindred souls out
there, likewise treated, that you may form new bonds and circles free
of heterocentric dogma. Which dogma BTW, extends to hatred of women,
progressives, pagans, artists, and so on. Their homophobia is, however,
their foundation upon which they build...thanks to the majority of
citizens TACITLY approving anti-gay laws and behavior. You break this
chain of evil by smashing the anti-gay link. All other (non-queer)
prejudices will then dissipate. In closing:
I realize anti-gay
marriage is the trump card to wipe out all the rights of sexual
minorities. And I don't think any other (non-queer) minority or
political group can make any progress at this point, without
wholeheartedly defending and incorporating LGBT issues...even above and
beyond any other civil right, for some years to come. Defending and
liberating QueerFolk is the key to liberating everyone else. This is my
conviction, by which I strongly stand.
"Many are called but few are chosen;
Step right up for your lederhosen."
- Big Gay Brother [ gay-bible.org ]
|Democratic Meetup a Real Disappointment
|11.09.04 (9:04 pm) 
Date: Tue, 9 Nov 2004 19:43:40 -0500
From: East Coast Gay Activist
To: Zeke Krahlin
Subject: Re: My pic in S.F. Examiner - go see!
However, I hope you are clear on the concept
of "Jehovah's Queer Witness". That is, it has nothing to do with
Jehovah's Witnesses, except that "queerifying" the title has both a
humorous and political punch. Some people really think I created that
title because I, myself, am a JW as well as gay. That just ain't the
case. I created the title because I find it very clever.
Yes, definitely that is what I imagined.
I've thought about why Massachussetts has the
honor of being the first state to sanctify gay marriage. Of course, it
has to be the fact that someone so DEDICATED to gay rights lives in
Well, confidentally I think that I do have a "behind-the-scenes"
influence, for which I am not sure of the net effects, but do tend to
believe that there is an impact. It is an effect on the chemistry that
would not be provable, even with investigation. Things that I say tend
to reverbate more than most anyone would believe. I would never say
this publicly, since I think that in these matters we all need to put
egos aside. It isn't about us, it is about the human rights struggle.
It is almost impossible to assess the effects of what we individually
do (but it is important that we do them, to quote).
Based on my spritiual visions about you and me
and some (as yet unknown) others have a great destiny as leaders of gay
liberation. Your spirit is certainly strong enough to radiate an
enormous amount of will and benevolence, as to begin influencing the
spiritual energy over large regions, simply by your presence.
If such is the case, I'd have to conclude that California will be the second state. Why?
Because I live there.
No doubt. Destiny can be a mixed bag. JFK and MLK had destinies, and so
did Malcolm X and Che Guevara. Destiny gets you coming and going,
regardless your of basic approach. I hope to survive freely, long
enough to make it a source of speculation someday as to how and why
that was possible. I try not to be egotistical in imagining that there
will be public discussion of my life, someday, which is another thing
that I would not say publicly. I don't need attention, in fact it might
be embarassing, but far too much has happened for it not to gain
broader public attention, someday, which will hopefully be mostly after
I'm gone and can't be bothered by it.
Date: Tue, 9 Nov 2004 21:58:50 -0800
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: East Coast Gay Activist
Subject: Re: My pic in S.F. Examiner - go see!
Quoting East Coast Gay Activist:
No doubt. Destiny can be a mixed bag. JFK and
MLK had destinies, and so did Malcolm X and Che Guevara. Destiny gets
you coming and going, regardless your of basic approach.
There are happy destinies too...one CAN have one's cake, and eat it,
too. Buddhism has an excellent handle on this attitude: rise above the
duality. The JFK/MLK type sagas are but ONE genre of destiny's
fulfillment. This western tragedy has been way overdone. Non-western
traditions have a better understanding on the goodness of life, that
need not require tragic endings to learn a lesson, or achieve some
good. Sometimes, playing the scenario of "good vs. evil" is a poor way
to go. One can also EASILY perceive evil is a temporary component of
evolution...to be vastly tempered once we graduate from grade school.
I try not to be egotistical in imagining that
there will be public discussion of my life, someday, which is another
thing that I would not say publicly. I don't need attention, in fact it
might be embarassing,
But you are smart enough to realize that your type of ideas are likely
to fire up the reader's spirit, and have a visible impact on our
culture. 'Cause you're also smart enough to know the type of writing
required to inspire people...the kind that yearns to take off on its
own, and it does (w/o you're being able to do a thing about it).
I often imagine myself famous...but believe
now, this was not my imagination, but my visionary capacity to see some
of the future.
You will be amused to know that I walked out on tonight's Democratic
Party Meetup. In a nutshell: some there hollered me down, when I tried
to bring up the gay issue. My goal was to incorporate an aggressive,
pro-gay platform within the Democratic Party. I scratched the surfaces
of these "liberal" heteros, and found almost overwhelming hatred
against me, for my gay stance.
This shows me that the Dems will likely turn on queers, and participate
in the Holocaust II. Or this party will split between the pro-gay
faction and the anti-gay faction. My platform is thus:
"I realize anti-gay marriage is the trump card to wipe out all the
rights of sexual minorities. And I don't think any other (non-queer)
minority or political group can make any progress at this point,
without wholeheartedly defending and incorporating LGBTQ issues...even
above and beyond any other civil right, for some years to come.
Defending and liberating QueerFolk is the key to liberating everyone
else. This is my conviction, by which I strongly stand."
But the group couldn't handle it, treated me like a little child,
rolled their eyes, screamed at me, and were overall rude and
homophobic...including Owen, the Gay Democratic Leader of S.F. Young
Dems! So I walked out, telling them when they come to their senses,
they'll contact me. The Dems need strong-willed leadership such as what
I can offer...but I'll be damned, if I breathe new life into the Party
without a solid show of pro-gay support on their part. They need us, we
don't need them. Queers will find a way through this horrid muck, I'm
sure of that!
It's as if they're all born-again Xians who've infiltrated the Dems,
here in S.F. No surprise here. I planted the seed of dissent, before
walking out. The sooner we have an ultra-pro-gay Democratic Party, the
sooner we'll have a better world. Much, much better.
Bush will likely pass the anti-gay marriage amendment around
Thanksgiving. This will read as a green light for homophobes
everywhere, to cast us from our homes, our jobs, our towns, and so on.
Dubya will declare sexual minorities an imminent danger to Amerikan
Hetero Fambly Valyooz. Thus begins the Holocaust II, with gays the
The sane part of the world will see the US an immediate threat to this
planet's survival...knowing that once a dictator starts bashing gays,
it's not long before he begins blowing up bombs around the world. So
these sane nations (which may include China, Russia, Brazil, and Cuba)
will group together quickly, and become vastly more powerful than the
US. They will dismantle our government, that the USA will be no more;
this grand experiment gone awry, and become too hazardous to allow to
With that, new nations shall be carved out of the former
USA...including Athenia, world's first gay nation (with me for their
What may then happen, is the restoration of Amerika piece by
piece...with Athenia remaining a nation unto itself...a beacon for
sexual minorities to follow if they seek refuge.
I now witness my visions of dictatorship and civil war/holocaust
unfold. Which affirms their truth, and the resulting success of sexual
minorities, shown in the visions that follow.
Vote for Zeke in two double-oh eight,
Or right-wing goons will seal your fate!
|My pic in S.F. Examiner
|11.05.04 (9:39 pm) 
From an article about the local Democrats post-election day. A picture
of myself, standing before a slick cardboard rendering of Kerry, and
gazing down at the spoils of a battle lost. (Thought-box insert mine.)
|Gay Rights vs. Black Rights (round 882)
|11.05.04 (11:00 am) 
NOTE: I did not write any of the material in today's blog. I lifted it
from the Gaynet mailing list, for the sake of the eloquent rebuttal
against those who think gay rights is trivial to black rights. Enjoy! -
Date: Thu, 04 Nov 2004 22:45:13 -0800
From: Gaynet Member #2
Subject: Re: Every day we're alive is a day for resistance
Gaynet Member #1 writes:
But you're either extremely forgetful or
extremely insensitive to suggest that not being able to get legally
married is the same as facing guns, attack dogs, lynch mobs and jail
Strange...gay people are still facing guns, attack dogs, lynch mobs,
and jail cells. And just as blacks had to deal with Jim Crow laws, we
have to deal with atrocities like Colorado's Amendment 2 which sought
to make it legal to discriminate against gay people and make it illegal
for gay people to do anything about it.
One of the new Republican Senators recently elected feels that doctors
who perform abortions should be given the death penalty. What do you
think he's going to try and do to the legal status of gay people?
that homophobia is fundamentally the same as racism in its antecedents and practices;
In many cases, it is. It stems from a feeling of superiority over the
inferior, envisioning gay people as something less than human, coupled
with a biblical mandate to feel that way. Sounds an awful lot like some
of the etiology of racism.
and that the attempt to legislate recognition
of same-sex marriage is linked to some life-or-death struggle in the
way that overturning Jim Crow laws was linked to the basic right of
African Americans not to be spit on, beaten, jailed, or murdered.
So Loving v. Virginia has no connection to Jim Crow laws?
No poor queer eats because of a marriage law;
Actually, they do. There are poor gay people who would receive the
significant monetary benefits of marriage and thus be able to eat.
no (uncoupled) queer gets better medical care because of a marriage law;
Actually, they do. Not everybody lives in a state that has laws requiring insurance policies to cover domestic partners.
no queer teenager stops getting fag-baited because of a marriage law.
Of course not. But then again, black people didn't stop getting lynched
because of Loving v. Virginia. Should it not have been fought for? And
are you seriously saying that miscegenation laws had nothing to do with
Focus your political efforts there if you want, but let's try to avoid being *too* grand about what's really at stake.
On the contrary, you need to start realizing that it is grander than you think.
|Thank you EVC
|11.02.04 (7:38 am) 
The Law Of Averages alone would dictate that--since far more
Kerry/Edwards lawn signs exist across the continental span, than do
Bush/Cheney lawn signs--more dogs would be seen peeing on the former
signs, than on the latter. This in no way reflects upon the candidate.
I just voted. My absentee ballot never arrived in the mail--though my
voting pamphlet did--so I had no other option than to vote with a
provisional ballot. I'd sure like to know how many Dems registered
absentee failed to receive their ballot!
Now, from 11:30am to
8pm, I'm to do some poll watching, and track down those addresses in my
precinct, where I'll nudge the few stragglers to get out and vote
before it's too late. Can't wait till this day is over...and can party
at the Democrat gathering on Mission & 3rd (big, fancy hotel). And
then, a good sleep, then back to Every Vote Counts headquarters by
next-day noon, to begin the 3-day process of dismantling everything.
wonderful experience with the good folks at EVC were incredible. I've
never seen such a unified group of loyal, compassionate, and liberal
folks in a long, long time. Hana, Owen, Marisol, Lucy, Danielle, Lisa,
Tracy, Nancy, Christie, Tom, Stephani, Liz, Beverly, Irving, and
Michael. Thank you, each and every one...and if I left your name out,
it's either because you were attempting to muddy up our good works and
don't deserve my accolades, or I simply spaced out (for which I
And now, it must all be erased.
Like a sand painting.
100% pure good karma
(Bear Medicine: always the best!)