Quacktivist: Randolph comes to me as Zeus. You may view an image i painted of him here: Zeus Electric.

Henri_Gordien: Beautiful work !

Henri_Gordien: This is a very young Zeus

Quacktivist: Thank you. He's my darling.

Quacktivist: Well, Zeus IS a shape shifter, and eternally young of course. You shouldn't be surprised!

Henri_Gordien: LOL... he likes appearing to me with black, curly hair and beard, but it's a face of somebody I knew that he uses in order to hide his true faces a bit to me.

Henri_Gordien: I put the picture of my twin sister in spirit when she was 13 - she is now 22.

Quacktivist: That may be my situation, too...Zeus may be appearing to me as Randolph, in a gesture of compassion.

Henri_Gordien: Once, I wanted to guess her real name, I wanted to name her Cynthia - yet another clue.

Henri_Gordien: Yes, he damn well could. And he enjoys both men and women.

Quacktivist: Not MY Zeus! But I come from a very DIFFERENT angle...a universe where there is NO heterosexuality to impose itself on us gays.

Henri_Gordien: BTDT, done the T-shirt :)

Henri_Gordien: Nothing is imposed in the World Above. In fact, things are just a matter of personal preference and there is NO judgement whatsoever.

Quacktivist: T-shirts are just a small part of my iconic gay logos...my designs will soon appear around the world, as stickers, decals, buttons, key chains, and even boxer briefs and concreted airport runways. I am the Heart of the Gay Revolution. And my role IS in Christian Prophecy...the Angel with a tongue of seven swords. That's in Revelation...don't remember it's verse #.

Henri_Gordien: We all capture the bits of the Events to come through what we are already conscious of.

Quacktivist: Good point. ..and it's time for the cross of gay suffering to be lifted. We have many times over, EARNED this fantasy I've had for a long time. Maybe it was a prophetic vision all along, which I interpreted as fantasy.

Henri_Gordien: Well, the part of the story I got so far is this Apollo - Christ story. There is a strong element in it about freedom of love and gayness.

Henri_Gordien: Other things I did not tell you about Lilith yet... some time later, I made her pregnant. It was a moment of absolute beauty.

Henri_Gordien: Then I switched gender astrally. Then I was given the child to bear. I spent 9 months with the usual effects - only astrally, I was given lots of details...

Henri_Gordien: So it's like I'm ready for the show - IF and WHEN the new stage of things show up.

Quacktivist: The trick about Bible Code, is that there is a DEEPER hidden code, than what has been shared in this recent spate of Bible Code Theory. The "trick" is that the homosexual spirit has been hidden in this primal code...so that most Bible Code Theorists think heteros are the only worthy beings...and gays are irrelevant. They push the Mary of Magdalene fucking Jesus thing, in order to heterosexualize Christianity. They are that scared of gays. This is a surrpetitious war against non-heteros...been going on for almost 2 millenia.

Henri_Gordien: Well, they would us to believe this war has been constant, it has not been, there were homosexual unions in the church until 2 centuries ago in some countries.

Henri_Gordien: Lilith once showed me the soul of this child to be born. She is an incredibly lovely, witty little minx with brown hair, like her mum.

Quacktivist: Things always snap back to heterocenteredness. Heteros STOLE the marrige vows from gays, then persecuted them into relative oblivion. If society stopped pressuring people to act hetero, via media shows and ads...watch how quickly the human race will homosexualize. Heterosexism is the main KEY to controlling the minds of the masses. THAT is part of the hidden Bible Code...NOT permitted for heteros to see, unless they have the privilege..and that's quite rare.

Henri_Gordien: And later on, I was told exactly how it had been said it would happen, that I should name her Astrid.

Henri_Gordien: As a matter of fact, my guide Dorian (a spiritual uncle to me) is presently around - he seems to want me to keep giving you details of the story.

Quacktivist: OKay, that's personal, family stuff...whether involving divine conjugation, or something more mundane. But tell me how this will impact the world in the long run...what your role will be.

Henri_Gordien: Sure... well, having a child with such a conception story is part of the "shock and awe", spiritually speaking.

Henri_Gordien: I'm listening :-)

Quacktivist: You're very generalized. What specifically will you be involved in, shaping our New World?

Henri_Gordien: Well, assuming the story is true ...

Quacktivist: That's okay. Obviously, we're sharing parallel realities that may NEVER intersect, but nonetheless are equally valid. My universe is totally gay: no Lilith for one. Yours includes Lilith, and is valid...as mine also is.

Henri_Gordien: I gave the name Xiousha to this feminine form of me. I wanted a Russian name - my twin mate is Russian, her name is Masha... and Alpha shocked me when he made me realize that it's nearly Youshua except the Y was exchanged for a X (like chromosoms)

Henri_Gordien: So the thing woud be, I'd manifest something - BE, not so much acting (except "deliver the baby and shut up".... lol)

Henri_Gordien: I'm supposed to replace my dad Alpha some day.

Quacktivist: Okay. But will this have any sort of impact on the world? Isn't Alpha a deity? Another variation on the male aspect of the creator?

Henri_Gordien: First they had asked me to become an emissary, I did some missions in spirit... then this ruler thing... we'll see.

Henri_Gordien: Well, the thing is, to me, Revelation is also the moment where the Ancient Gods come back to our place and make themselves visible.

Henri_Gordien: In more than one sense, you could call them highly ethical E.T. beings.

Henri_Gordien: The "elected ones" are supposed to be given a one-way ticket to the promised land, well, Paradise, you know.

Henri_Gordien: With eternal bodies and all. That's supposedly the rapture part of the story.

Quacktivist: If that be true, then there must be many others on earth, who are equally worthy of your destiny. Are we going to have equally-legitimate Male and Female gods possessing a lot of human souls?

Henri_Gordien: Well, I sort of told this to them - it seems it did not work.

Quacktivist: You ask them the same question? "It seems it did not work"...meaning what, exactly?8-X

Henri_Gordien: LOL... look

Henri_Gordien: I never thought of myself as a specific person, yet, well, once I recovered all my brain, I understood all these family stories (gradually)

Henri_Gordien: It brought me up to the point where I have reasons to believe it's actually true and I might be the present avatar of Apollo.

Henri_Gordien: I know how dangerous it actually is to have such claims, and in fact it's not a claim, just a sincere and temporary conclusion.

Henri_Gordien: About the "possessing our souls" bit... well, it looks like they actually the Creators of many things, including our very souls.

Quacktivist: I don't see any ONE person gaining that claim...or "conclusion". I see anywhere from 10,000 to 10,000,000 being handed the Caduceus, and representing Apollo in a myriad of aspects.

Henri_Gordien: Well, one thing is sure, while we are incarnated here, we can't express all that there is in us.

Quacktivist: Same for Zeus's or Liltih's child.

Henri_Gordien: Anyway - if true, it's not an EASY thing to me to bear.

Quacktivist: I don't think it's true in the way you stated. But I am not here to judge.

Henri_Gordien: It did not happen like they told me "Ok, we're this and you are Apollo"... it came very gradually through lots and lots of clues, a true puzzle. I double-checked lots of things thanks to other seers and fellow shamans...

Quacktivist: As for bearing this...if true, this also implies that it's NATURAL, and therefore the role will come to you with ease.

Henri_Gordien: Well, yes, in that ...

Henri_Gordien: At least I know we are talking about inner abilities, NOT things that I could develop during my present life which was totally AWAY from all this.

Quacktivist: You are aware there are others who are equally convinced of a destiny just like yours...and their proof and experience is also well documented, like you claim yours is.

Henri_Gordien: I'd say this group of beings Up Above consider me as their "little prince"

Quacktivist: Again, others claim same. With equal legitimacy.

Henri_Gordien: I know... well, the truth has to be that ALL of them (except POSSIBLY) one are either liars (including to themselves) or people with some mental health issue.

Henri_Gordien: I heard about a surprisingly little number of persons believing they have been Youshua bar Joseph.

Quacktivist: It is a teaching in the Kabala (and other mystical schools) that every human being has the ability (and the right) to experience even the highest levels, even being God, him/herself. And the angels shall regard you as God himself, or his own son, or Lilith's.

Quacktivist: That is how I see what you are experiencing.

Henri_Gordien: I can only say that I bear a story that has an interesting version of events... :-)

Quacktivist: Send it to me via e-mail, I'll enjoy the read. I need to get back to my other work.

Henri_Gordien: I was a blank page when it all started.

Quacktivist: So was the universe. So was each of us.

Henri_Gordien: LOL.... I won't be able to sum up things in 2,500 pages easily, plus my diary of visions is in French, unfortunately.

Henri_Gordien: If you kept our e-mails and this IM, you'll have the bulk of it, the rest are details.

Quacktivist: If you would enjoy posting to me further...e-mail me. Because I have to get off chat. I AM recording all our e-mails and chat. I consider these valuable exchanges.

Henri_Gordien: And I damn well know it's a totally crazy story.

Henri_Gordien: Ok.... I'll go to bed now. Have a nice day, Zeke !

Henri_Gordien: I mean, I don't find it easy when a guide is pressing me to tell this story like I have been doing with you.

Quacktivist: Well, I'm still not convinced, regardless. Chat with you again soon, Henri! 3:-O

Henri_Gordien: It does not matter if you are convinced, I was asked to tell it to you - and a last thing

Quacktivist: I am currently away from the computer.

Henri_Gordien: it will only matter if things happen, otherwise .... it's nothing !

Henri_Gordien: Take care

November 6, 2007: My Conclusion (Part 1 of 2)

Henri, after re-reading our IM conversation several times, I'd like to present my conclusion as to what's really happened to you. This is not a mental or other disability problem, though you would likely be regarded as such by your average therapist (as would I with my own incredible visions). While I believe you are incorrect about your findings, I know they are nonetheless true from your perspective, and these spirits are neither demons, nor deluding you...EXCEPT it might serve a higher purpose that includes the evolution of your soul. There should be no shame, guilt, fears or humiliation on your part...for you definitely are being honored.

It's a shamanic initiation into a higher form of existence: becoming an angel as it were...only without dying. This initiation, this "rite of passage" involves creating a false premise about your destiny; an illusion. But not out of mean-spirited deception or miscommunication. In fact, you are receiving great rewards for your long-suffering and dedication to spiritual ideals.

As I said in our previous chat: Kabalistic thought states that anyone can attain even the loftiest levels of spiritual being...including that of the Creator himself. IF the devotee has struggled long enough, and used his arts wisely, and with compassion. The angels themselves will regard you in the exact same ways they do God (or Jesus, etc.)! But they do know very well you are Henri, not a God; IOW, they are not deluded, either.

Angels can create--and alter--reality, to suit their needs...as easily as you and I change hats. Do not for a moment think you could see through their divine schemes, if they choose not to reveal them. And your belief (in yourself as a god) is one such example: they want you to believe you are Apollo's incarnation...it is not your fault! You are being honored by their regards toward you, as they do Apollo Himself. You will even get to play Apollo for a time, as part of your reward, once the initiation is completed. And many other adventures that will stem out of this honor...which lasts for eternity.

In these times, such gifted people are destined to play a leading role in building the foundations of heaven here on earth. As co-Creator with the angels themselves. What kind of leadership? Depends on each person's talents. Some will head ecology, some education, some law enforcement, some religious matters, some medicine, some music or other art, and yet others civil rights (like myself, via the gay perspective; others via women's rights, black rights, the disabled, and so on). And these are but a tiny sampling of all the myriad possibilities out there.

Like a Shaman that enters trance mode, and believes he is whatever spirit or deity that temporarily possesses him, in order to convey a message or lesson to the tribe. It is the most direct, intimate form of channeling, where you get to experience a deity in the first person. Now the tribe knows, the shaman even knows (before and after such trances), that he is not really such-and-such a spirit, but that it came through him as the perfect vessel of astral communique.

There is no way I could ever persuade you to my line of thinking...as your angels have totally seduced you into this unique mindset (with only the best of intentions, mind you. They do know what they're doing.) This kind of illusion is not one that harbors the least animosity, avarice, or malicious intent. It's like setting things up for a surprise party. It is even possible that your guardians instructed you to trust me with this highly personal insight...that I may present to you my case, which I believe to be the final truth. So I want to assure you I do not in any way regard you as insane, or even self-deluded. You are in no danger in any way, shape or form. And I will not share any of your personal revelations with anyone...this stays between us.

I believe every human being deserves to reach the ultimate heights, spiritually...simply by virtue of being created as a sentient being in the first place. Just because, say, Jesus was created first (perhaps; I'm just using this as an example...you can replace him with "Lucifer", "Lilith", or some other)...should not mean he deserves more rewards than you. Not that you don't have to struggle through all the trials that life demands, to gain the wisdom required to bring you to such heights. We all must walk a difficult path, though as varied as each individual. In the Bhavagad Gita, Krishna elucidated many pearls of wisdom to his best friend Prince Arjuna, including this: "There are as many paths to Godhead as there are souls."

When you think about it, "yourself" is the greatest being in existence. Such is our Creator's gift...that each of us is every bit as vital to the universe's very existence, and every bit as loved as his First Created. So why would you really want to be God, or His Consort, or any one among the Pantheon of Cosmic Creators? When you are actually more than all of them put together! So, once experiencing Divine Supremacy, the newly-initiated shaman descends back into his ego, his personality, his self...and feels greatly enriched for the adventure, and as "himself" once more, becomes a storyteller, healer, and guide par excellence of great mysteries.

There may indeed be parallel worlds to satisfy each person's fantasy...if either fantasy would clash with the other, on the same planet. You could be Apollo on one of these parallel planets, and I could be Apollo on another. There could even be millions of Apollos on millions of planets. We'd have passports to visit these parallel realities via wormhole portals: it would become as easy and common as riding a jet to another country. Though without terrorist security checks and other gross inconviences, of course. (In fact, the technology used for wormhole security is of a psychic nature, thus inexpensive and 100% foolproof, while also respecting every passenger's privacy.)

In sum: I am neither expecting nor asking you to believe my angle in this matter. Only presenting it to you as another possibility to keep in mind.

Zeke Krahlin
a.k.a. "Quacktivist"

November 8, 2007: My Conclusion (Part 2 of 2)

Henri, thanks for the e-mails; I'll study them tonight. So I'm posting you this 2nd part--coming from further introspection, without first reading your comments to Part 1. Sorry, but this is too important to delay:

One very IMPORTANT piece of wisdom I have gained from my guardians: It is always wisest to assume you are NOT any deity, even if it turns out you are. It's called "playing it safe"...meaning that you want to avoid like the devil himself, any idea that seduces you into believing you are a god. For most likely you are not, nor ever will be. Much better and safer to see yourself as a CHANNEL for this or that spirit. This then is a test of your humility (among other things), for even if you ARE a god reincarnate (and had forgotten this in the transition back into flesh), you PROVE your humble graces by deferring on the side of caution: that you are simply (but blessedly) a gifted mortal.

It is in your POWER of choice, to choose to disbelieve any astral messages that you are actually, a bona fide deity. You can't tell me that is impossible for you, as in fact you DO state the possibility that you are incorrect...albeit the LEAST likely of all conclusions in your own mind. Nonetheless, it is there, though tiny like a mustard seed.

Please regard my use of MK-ULTRA to mean whatever related group is doing this. I can't read all your latest e-mails right away, but I did take a quick glance in one, where you say MK-ULTRA no longer exists. I know that...it was just a convenient handle for those in power using psychic tools to manipulate. Don't get hung up on titles here! I'm sure there's more than one such diabolical agency, as I'm also sure there's more than one angelic.

I believe that MK-ULTRA has implanted a false memory chip into your psyche...as perhaps an experiment that may not be sinister. (Or possibly some anti-MKU agency is fighting to reclaim your soul, using me as a channel for this benevolent purpose.) Whoever they really are, perhaps they want to see if you have the WILL to overcome such potent mind control, by re-birthing your mortal self, who is Henri. The real Henri is but a remnant, a tiny voice deep down inside, trying to find a way to emerge again...as manifest in your faith to open up to me, even though you know I might reject you. You say your spirit guides instruct you to feel absolutely free to tell all. Those spirit guides are your fractured true self...a split-up personality as an adaptive measure to very cruel torment.

It makes sense your guides tell you to trust me: I am a healer, growing rapidly in power. The demand your precarious situation puts on me is to heal remotely...a psychic cousin to remove viewing. I know exactly how to use my words and meditations to prompt a successful return to your whole being. In fact, it is done, Henri, it is done. You need not worry about your success in conquering such an incredibly powerful challenge. But I assure you, your prophecy of Apollo reincarnate (through you) to eventually become Zeus's own replacement...WILL NOT HAPPEN, nor will it EVER.

You even admitted that if it doesn't happen, so it doesn't. Are you psychologically prepared to keep from being traumatized, when this vision which has you so completely seduced, does NOT manifest? I hope so. But if not, you'll still be fine in the long run. Once you have rediscovered your true, individual self, you will have so MANY spiritual treasures, you just couldn't believe. And you WILL nonetheless wind up playing one of the STARRING roles as numbering among the handful of people who are destined to SAVE and REBIRTH the planet.

You are NOT Apollo, though he IS manifesting through you...as he does through me...though for a different purpose. But believe me, Henri, I have suffered the same delusions of grandeur, myself. I came to realize this is a shaman's rite of passage...and to succeed in passing through this, one needs to reclaim the ego, one's individuality. This TEMPTATION to believe you are a god, even God Himself, is the challenge to your ego, to accept the delusion, or to conquer it with the Sword of True Discernment. EVERY shaman is so tempted...well, actually, only every extremely GIFTED shaman...for it is a test reserved only for the most gifted.

YOU can start any time, Henri, by saying to yourself "I am NOT Apollo. I am Henri. I am not ANY sort of deity, I am Henri." Envision yourself several times a day, as receiving bounteous blessings from the spirit world...which includes this ruse to topple your ego from its rightful seat in your consciousness. You NEVER need to fight this, as if wrestling the devil. For this is neither a curse nor demonic possession. It is a blessing in disguise, that will gain you tremendous strength, wisdom and a bounteous life.