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Ezekiel J. Krahlin
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LETTER TO DAVID (FROM COTATI), 10/27/96
©1998 by Ezekiel J. Krahlin
Dear David,
I believe my talkativeness was only a small part of why you
are so upset with my behavior...and I write to you, only
because leaving this bag of tricks hanging in my hands is not
fair. There are important points you brought up, but did not
give me time to process. Here they are:
1) It was obvious that you preferred to be alone with
Maria...to have some quality time with your mate, and no
visitors. Your household has always had streams of guests
running through, mixed with household refinishing,
employee duties, and pet care, cleaning, shopping and
cooking. But this time around, I saw the stress level of
all these activities maxing out. Having a housemate does
not make things any easier...for you never truly can have
the house to yourselves. I think it would be great if you
two dropped everything, shut off the phone, and spent
quality time with each other for a solid week or two.
Forget "obligations" of any sort. I realize this may not
be possible regarding job duties...but you could just put
a halt on any and all visitors for a stretch of seven
days, minimum. Perhaps this year, for a change, you could
celebrate the holidays with each other and no one
else...and let family and friends fend for themselves this
time around. (Maybe a second honeymoon?)
2) Your attack on me over the "10 per cent quota" issue is
not your style...unless I am mistaken, and you intend to
vote FOR prop 209. You sounded like a Dole
supporter...whose ilk demeaned and belittled an
intelligent, important contributor to political justice,
Lanie Guinier (sp?), by labellng her as "Quota Queen." I
was pointing out the horrible ignoring by the media, of
the existence of homosexuals in our society, on every
level...by never including them in regular shows, on any
basis that one would call sane and reasonable. This, I
said, should be approximately 10 per cent of the time, as
it is in real life. Remember when blacks had no
visibility on television? I'm sure they often made annoyed
remarks about nothing but rich whites on the tubes. Well,
in that fashion, I remark about nothing but heteros all
over the airwaves.
You justified this media whitewash by saying that heteros
are the majority, so what can I do about it? I'm sure
that white closet racists thought the same thing about
black Americans, in the fifties. Our country's
constitution and declaration were specifically designed
to protect lesser groups from the "tyranny of the
majority". That's the whole point of democracy, in its
ideal concept. That is also Ms. Guinier's very vocal and
eloquent stance. But you know that, already. You are a
closet homophobe. Or let me put this another way: you
fancy yourself a progressive in every way, but have
forgotten that to remain so, one must continue to grow
and change with new insights. Most people in our society
are homophobic to some degree...even gay men! It is so
deeply ingrained in our culture, that just about everyone
carries around some streak of homophobia in his
character. I'm not saying you are more than somewhat
homophobic...but it's there, obviously. Clean it up and
move on.
3) In my household, friends come before television. So any
conversation holds precedence over the tube, no matter
what is showing. It's very irritating when someone
starts a conversation with me, then abruptly cuts me off
because of television. But it soon became obvious that
not only did you cut me off to watch something...but you
had no desire to let me pick up the thread, in order to
finish my reply. That's playing dirty. I thought you
were better than this. I can visit any red-blooded
all-American (read "homophobic") household, at any time,
to be treated that way.
4) I had no idea you're the last word on Ultimate Reality!
Excuuuuuuse me! Your rational, empirical world view is a
paragon of scientific inquiry...no angels, no ghosts, no
dream visions, no spirit world...just pure intellect.
But I'm not impressed. If your intellect were really in
tune, you would at least quickly have grasped my
complaint over the lack-of-gays-on-TV issue. Even the
purely rational stance has become passe some years
ago...when it was oh-so-chique to scorn and snarl at
anyone who claimed to have any kind of spiritual
knowledge of any sort. Even the sciences have begun to
incorporate extrasensory exploration and theory, as part
of new understandings via Quantum Physics. For examples:
the application of acupuncture into western medicine, a
closer examination of endangered jungle cultures for
their lore of spirit knowledge as applied to health and
personal achievement.
5) I certainly am NOT preaching to the choir--as you
claim--as long as you come up with such upset reactions
to my perceptions of society's sickness as it relates to
gay people. There are many homosexual folks who also
snarl at my ideas. But that is because they also serve
the Beast of The Status Quo...believing they are still
progressive (or liberal), when they have actually sold
out to the system (sacrificing their dreams, too) a long,
long time ago. They regard me as totally irrelevant, as I
do not have a job--let alone a statusy one like them--and
therefore have no right to speak up! Society needs me,
and others like me, far more than it could ever realize
at this point in time. But things will soon change.
---finis