SOMA: SOUTH OF MARKET ANUSES
BTW, I cannot possibly complete each of my remaining Friendly Ghost
chapters every 24 hours. It's turned out to be even MORE of an
excrutiating labor of love...but really, I gain MUCH pleasure from this
Regardless, too, of the high possibility these curs may attempt to
sabotage my life even further than they already have! In the event I
get whisked off to jail or some other high-security restriction...I
request that someone (or someONES) establish a fund to assist my legal
Also: organize a media blitz on my behalf, and do your very best to
KEEP me in the public eye. I have NO ONE around me (except Peggy) who'd
do me that excellent favor. But it would NOT be fair to place such a
burden on ONE person...especially with the difficult challenges SHE has
in her own fantabulous-but-busy life (beating CANCER for one). PLUS,
this would likely put her life in danger.
In the event this unfortunate derailment should occur, please
contact Tom K. and start your own "Free Zeke" mailing list. His e-mail
is extensively publicized via Usenet as well as NUMEROUS web pages
scattered throughout The Dark Realm Of Cyberspace:
ALERT 2:37 AM NOVEMBER 24: I can no longer
access my gay-bible.org website, nor my ZekeBlog, nor my e-mailbox.
Hilarious! I am SO all over these fascist goons. Right in the middle of
composing Part 4 of the Friendly Ghost Detective Agency! I'm gonna have
to find a way to BURN this latest chapter to CD, and send it off to Tom
K. As well as telephone him tomorrowf. I'll give him the e-mails of four trusted friends (see below). Good thing I've downloaded ALL my web log articles for backup! I can snail-mail ALL of them to Tom K., in 2 or 3 diskettes! That is: if the police, FBI or CIA or whatever don't come smashing down my door in the middle of the night....which IS a possibility, drama queens they be!
This is a REAL WAR going on here, and I am
FRONT MAN. I am ffhe FINEST spiritual warrior the world has ever seen
since...er...Gandhi perhaps (though he was heterosexual and a wife beater
to boot...Goddess forbid!) I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO SET UP INFORMATIVE
LINKS WITHIN THIS CHAPTER; THIS IS A RACE FOR TIME! Do you want to take
up arms and defend me, or back away and leave me to my own wits?
Personally, I am 110% CONFIDENT that I shall be victorious no
matter what...like the Little Red Hen who successfully baked a
DELICIOUS loaf of bread withOUT the camaraderie of her barnyard
associates. I don't even care if you're ATHEIST in your support...I
know better: that there IS an elegantly compassionate and humorous
God (or Goddess), who RESPECTS any and all non-nihilistic belief
systems (which of COURSE includes humanistic atheist philosophy)...and
ANGELS that watch over us wih the GREATEST benevolence and
brotherly/sisterly adoration. I AM BECOME LIVING PROOF. Neither Prozac nor its derivatives have ANYTHING to do with my UTTERLY REMARKABLE revelations.
LIKEWISE for Jesus the Christ...who is nothing more than a flimsy and
watered-down spinoff of Apollonian Mythos, thank you very much.
PLEASE NOTE: This passage has been inserted above
my current writing, due to the URGENCY of this sudden--though
anticipated--sabotage. Further down, I DISCUSS the likelihood of being
cut off from Internet accesss, brilliant QUEER PAGAN PROPHET that I am!
(And ALSO realize that my full consicousness of my Goddess-Chosen Role
is only VERY RECENT; not something I've known for years.) No sooner
than ONE HOUR after stating this possibility of Internet expulsion, I
am effectively SABOTAGED exactly as described! But just be aware that i
take the Buddhist spin: "We have no enemies, only teachers." And
in so thinking, I conclude that "MINE ENEMIES" are simply angels
playing a role in order to make me into a HERO. They are TELEPATHIC,
and know exactly the moments appropriate to push my buttons. DON'T HATE ANY OF THEM! They are angelic actors and actresses participating in a DREAM COME TRUE just for yours truly! By
the same token, you must REGARD them as adversaries, until they finally
drop their Swords Of Enmity. That's just how The Game Of Life MUST Be
So let's just see if I can keep this rude distraction at bay, and complete This Lovely Chapter Under Siege! I need to finish my report on the SEVEN CURS OF SOMA, which you shall learn about in a short while. Thanks for your patience, my belov-ed "e-friends"!
So I'm not imposing on his privacy in sharing this address with my
ADDITIONAL and TRUSTWORTHY e-friends, who number just four (e-mail
links embedded clearly denoted, since it seems I've just been CENSORED IN CYBERSPACE). I am snail-mailing this to Tom, who can then contact these decent people.)
- Peggy C. Over hill, over dale, (down the hallway)
- Eleanor C. as we hit the dusty trail, (Mendocino County, CA)
- James D. and those caissons go rolling along. (Cole Valley, S.F.)
- John H. In and out, hear them shout. (Philly, PA)
I've OBLITERATED certain data, such as e-mail addresses, last names and
my phone number...for this public, Internet version. The EMERGENCY
version remains intact, and will be mailed to Tom shortly.)
The first REAL testing of these scary waters is about to occur: I
e-mailed my URL for The Larkin Chronicles AND Friendly Ghost to Joe
Cote and Dennis Wallo less than two nights ago.
I WANTED to POST to BARtender RON:
aLAS his E-mail is SADly a-"NON".
both GOSssips will GAIN undiVIDED atTENtion,
In HOPES of foMENting
(BTW: I have a strong hunch that the poem above contains SECRET
CODE composed of only those uppercase characters. If so, I channeled it
unconsciously, in my desire to assist ZekeBlog visitors in stressing
the correct syllables. Goddess only knows how to crack the code...but
maybe YOU can, Dearest Reader.)
Here's what I BELIEVE will happen: They'll contact Online Policy Group
which hosts my web site gratis. (OPG is a gay-founded cyber
organization that supports low income activists with free web sites,
e-mailboxes, and mailing lists.) Undoubtedly they will ALSO complain to
tBlog.com, which houses my ZekeBlog. While these GOONS are likely too
scared to instigate a lawsuit, shutting down my Internet presence is
something they can EASILY get away with, no legal repercussion. Oh
right: , there's also my ISP, QwickConnect. Surely These Winged Dogs Of
Abaddon will cause a flurry there, too!
Unfortunately, my CD-burner no longer functions...I can only view
and play CD's. In the event my Internet access DOES get sabotaged, it
would be nice to burn Friendly Ghost AND Larkin Chronicles to CDs, and
distribute them strategically. Anyone up for the job?
Well, this is all absolutely CAPTIVATING, how my life has taken this
sudden turn to ADVENTURE, INTRIGUE and (hopefully very soon) ROMANCE
and LOTSA HOT JUJUBE. Who knows? Maybe my One True Love is sitting in
isolation up there at San Quentin THIS VERY MOMENT! And he's
bodaciously BUFF, sinfully HANDSOME, absolutely LOYAL to his dearest
friends, is a master CAT BURGLAR, LOCKSMITH and IMPERSONATER (so when
he's released he can use his gangster connections to break me outta
there and go in hiding where we'd live our sweet lives together, in
total anonymity from the world except for those kind souls we know are
TRUE friends)...and I am totally a 10+++ in Those Mercurial Eyes Of His (by witch
I am eternally spellbound to be HIS prisoner, gladly, for LIFE. And
(finally *gasp*)...let's not forget this Righteously Courageous Dude's
GINORMOUS and ESTHETICALLY cut wanger, okay? Can you say "Popsicle
(Uhhh, I gotta leave the keyboard a few moments to tend this sudden urge for relief. Thanks for your patience: back shortly.)
In a Glorious Nutshell: be careful what you wish for! My adoration for Damon Runyon-esque
characters since I first read his delightful tales at age 11, about a
kind-hearted gangster (you know, the type who rob a bank and
successfully flee in their get-away, but wind up going to prison just
the same, 'cause a little girl just got hit by another car not related
to the robbery, and the gangster HAD to stop in order to save her
precious life)...has apparantly come to haunt me in a REALLY big way!
It was my mother BTW, who bought me that book as a holiday present:
a collection of Yuletide short stories by Amerikan writers from the
20's and 30's, possibly The Algonquin Round Table.
I remember the hard cover: a pale lemon-white with a full-length
vertical bar of red. Two inches wide in front, it wrapped around the
binder, back cover same width. (Believe me, I really STRUGGLED with
that description...uurggh! Funny how sometimes the SIMPLEST design can
be so difficult to put into word...er, "words". (No, take that back: "word" is good.) So sayeth my Guardian Angel Randolph. You can read about him in my abridged collection of missives entitled "Luv Letters From Jesus To His Daddy". I'm nothing if not DELECTABLY SACRILIGEOUS.
BTW, it wasn't
until several years AFTER coming up with the title "Final Testament"
for my website, that I learned it's also every Muslim's beloved
nickname for the Quran! Badda-bing, badda-boom.
It had that nice, fresh-book smell, almost cedar.
Stamped in red intaglio on the upper right corner was a tiny but
delightful outline of Santa w/sleigh and reindeer. Don't recall the
title, maybe: "America's Most Beloved Yuletide Yarns"...perhaps "12
Days of Christmas Tales". Here's a good deal: why not read Runyon's "Dancing Dan's Christmas" right now on the Internet! Or watch the film. Or listen to it
from the old-time radio archives (just a 3.4mb download...quick)! But
whichever way you choose, make sure you're curled up in a cozy spot,
hot cocoa in hand.
Anywayz, I FELL IN LOVE for the first time in
My-Then-Mayfly-Brief-Life : in love with Runyon's Brooklynite Anti (and
colorful) Heroes. I yearned to be in the strong embrace of such men
that do not exist ANYWHERE in these Long Island suburbs. (Except the
Juicy Good Humor Ice Cream Man with his tawny-gold hair and immaculate
white pants cockily set off by a silvery change belt dispenser
that I yearned to GRAB...and hold right there, not take or steal.
Heavy, warm coins adminstered by God's Own Angel...quarters from
Heaven! But It wasn't the coins I sought, it was the WHOLE PACKAGE. The
idea of hefting that luscious weight between those brawny thighs. O Sweet Masculinity! (Not
that I was consciously AWARE of my longings at such a tender age, mind
you. Freud would have a field day with me...an ORGY in fact.)
I SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM (IN MY JEANS)
(c) 1998 by Ezekiel J. Krahlin
Dad, thou art my Sundae Special!
Drive up in a truck 'cause it
rhymes with fuck; drop your change
belt and shove that pink, hard
treat where it tastes most sweet!
Then let me, Daddy, Daddy, let me
do you any way I please! Let me
tear off your shirt, and rest my
head on your manly chest as I
reach through your fly to find
something big to suck on! And let
me slide those spotless white
pants over your muscular legs,
which you raise in the air to help
me out! Please, Daddy, please let
me do even more! Let me make your
big nest slippery with my saliva
(your buoyant eggs shall ride the
waves of ecstasy!), let me taste
the sweetness of your crown (and
the first dew that drops on my
lips!), let me pierce your tight
sphincter with the dart of my
slippery tongue, and let me raise
your legs so I can pierce even
deeper, my hot breath smothering
your fiery balls, your cock so
stiff it feels like it's going to
burst from your skin! What bursts
instead is a fountain of ice
for we are in Candyland!
My mother (of all people) gave me The Book That Corrupted Me.
Thus began my romantic fantasies for men...and ONLY men. No woman could
even come CLOSE to the peerless bravado and dash of Damon's Daemons.
So it's Mom's fault I'm gay. She's 89 now, in a Florida nursing home
for the demented elderly. My Dad's 90 and bravely by her side each and
every day. It'll do him in. I can't imagine his suffering; only pray. I
would so love for one of Zeus's Own Messengers to perform a humble but
most sincere request of mine:
Go hither to my earthly matriarch who doesn't remember Her Number 2
Son any more. She is expected to part this fleshly veil in a short
Oh dear heaven! I think she just died, I suddenly feel her presence
so strong; I weep as I type. She says The Friendly Ghost Detective
Agency will shake the world to its core, and there are NO words on
earth OR in Heaven to express even remotely, how proud she is of me.
And begs forgivenes for the lonely and neglectfully ABUSIVE childhood I
suffered from her own hands, and those of my Dad, and of my only
(older) brother Sandy. And regrets terribly that my maternal
grandparents were purposely kept from enjoying the company of Their
Little Grandson, even though we all lived under the same North
Massapequa roof. They loved me SO MUCH and were SO SAD that I had to be
isolated from them.
WE INTERRUPT YOU FOR THIS SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT
Before I continue, it is of utmost import
to include an apology to my family for the negative accounts that
follow. Described below in some detail are descriptions of an unhappy
and dysfunctional family. Before anyone takes offense, allow me this
redeeming (and LIKELY) hypothesis:
Such a unique destiny as mine demands an equally
unique upbringing, most important: a TOUGHENING of one's mettle. The
usual nurturing family would surely NOT fulfill This Mandate From Up
Above. I therefore extend my utmost gratitude to both my
parents (Anna Elizabeth Catalano; Vincent Arthur Catalano, Sr.) and my
only sibling (Vincent Arthur Catalano, Jr. a.k.a. "Sandy") for having
the GUTS to play this out: a most difficult role, albeit sacred and massively grievous.
"We have no enemies, only teachers." (Buddha)
"Love thine enemies." (Jesus)
WE NOW RETURN YOU TO YOUR REGULAR SHOW
My grandfather, George
Gerrie (Scottish surname: "Gerrie" with a hard "G") had a harsh
childhood and was sent to America while still very young...leaving his
bereaved mother with a violent drunk of a husband, and his beloved pet
pig...abandoning them somewhere in the dingy outskirts of Elgin.
My parents RARELY talked
about their heritage (Mom, French-Scot; Dad, Italian). It was only
these past few years I managed to eke from my mother, some
background detail. Grandpa George was understandably morose as an
adult. His wife (my Grandma, whose first name I've long forgotten...or
maybe was never told), abided by him like a loving angel.
Is it possible he was
kept from me, because he suffered spells of violence? Is it possible
that my mother killed him? I only know that on that day when I came
home from school, my mother told me that Grandpa died. She said he had
turned away from the kitchen window after commenting on the lovely day,
then slipped and banged his bald pate on a corner of the wall, cracking
it open. She was not crying. She was not grim. Mom was matter-of-fact
about it, perhaps for the sake of sparing my little child self from
trauma. Though I'm not so sure. BTW it never occured to me until just a few short years ago, that my mother would ever kill anyone let alone her own father!
It is of course my
utmost HOPE that such morbid consideration is but a far flung fantasy
emerged from A Dark Corner Of The Mind. Though I DO fear that it is yet
another of my psychic glimmerings which ALWAYS turn out to be 100% accurate (though the revelation may take YEARS). It has all the familiar earmarks. There is also THIS sad truth:
When I was just a tot,
my mom would frequently wring her hands, exclaiming her deepest hope
that I wouldn't wind up like my cousin Patty, who died of a drug
overdose in a psychiatric ward! Now, how do you think that would IMPACT
an impressionable little boy? Can you say "psychological baggage"?
Plus: my father would sometimes remind me what a weak, pathetic loser I
was. UNlike my jock brother who joined varsity and later, The Citadel,
a military college in Charleston, South Carolina. Cracker's answer to
West Point! I felt unloved, unwanted, a financial burden...or IOW:
learned to despise my parents at an early age, but kept it to myself. My brother never bonded with me, either...we NEVER shared any fun moments whatsoever.
An Athlete, a Cadet, and an Eagle Scout. So where is his merit badge for BROTHERLY LOVE? Sandy has neither spoken with me, nor written a letter in the last 30-plus years!
Though I've phoned him twice
And written him thrice,
His lack of sibling concern is NOT
(Can you say "Typical Amerikan Nuclear Family Dysfunctionality" three times as fast as possible? Raised like a stranger by my own flesh and blood!) He's four years my senior; as an older brother he's supposed
to reach out to me! But he never did, and he's now what...61 years old,
retired from the Nassau County Police Department. Never fulfilled his
dream to be a detective. Yet look at where I'm headed now, at the ripe
age of 57: a bona fide PSYCHIC detective with the world soon at my
fingertips! And growing younger daily.
Since I hated my parents, I thought nothing of rifling through their
bedroom dressers while no one else was home. One day (at the tender age
of 11), I found hidden beneath my father's neatly piled boxer shorts,
this Bantam paperback: "Female Psycho Ward". The head nurse was
depicted (on the front cover in glossy printer's ink) scowling with
heaving breast and hair a-tousle, ripping the blouse of a buxom Candy
Striper. Behind them, a bloody pitchfork lay slanted against the
pea-green wall, while several attending nurses peered aghast through a
lucite partition. I was likewise aghast upon reading a lone paragraph
"How could you marry that man? Well, you're no prize
yourself! Did you think I never suspected, never longed,
wept, AGONIZED over what might have been? What
SHOULD have been? The devil's pitchfork is too GOOD
for you, vermin bitch! Slut! God damn putrid WHORE!"
She turned around, swept a livid hand beneath the sofa
cushions to reclaim a far-flung wedding ring. Instead, a
displaced needle drove clean through her index finger,
bone and all. She howled in wrathful agony: a toreador's
picador! Should she grab the pliers now and yank it out?
Or ride out the storm, continue her dirty deed until
Butchie (her "man") returns?
A couple years later I decided to treat myself
to a day at a carnival staged one weekend at the John H. West
Elementary School's baseball field a few blocks from my home. So I
returned to their bedroom and stole nearly the entire contents of their
"New Mexico or Bust" fire hydrant coin bank. $45 worth of quarters! I'm
sure Mom and Dad knew I was the thief, but they never confronted me.
Though a few days later I heard them in the bedroom, remarking on the
disappearance. Perhaps they spoke in stage whisper through a closed
door, hoping I'd confess. Perhaps they felt regret for my difficult
childhood and decided this time to be lenient.
I only remember ONE gift
presented me from my grandparents. Through Grandma's hand: a miniature,
plastic drum. My mother took it away.
I remember several weeks
after Grandpa's passing, I was shunted from the shared bedroom to that
of my deceased grandparents. (Grandma died in Syosset Hospital two
years prior.) The room was now revamped for a child: I ABHORED the clown-theme linoleum floor! The first night I slept on Grandpa George's bed, I dreamt of him:
His tall, gaunt frame
towered above, leaned over and tapped me awake. "Look under the bed. A
gift awaits you," were his only words. I awoke drenched in the pale
beams of a full moon. A chill November night, acid stung my sinuses:
the scent of crisp, dead leaves wafting through a cracked window cold
as steel. A Silurian moonlight exhumed Those Gaudy Linoleum Clowns from
a dark retreat.
What's under the bed?
Buried deep within the
secure illusion of a comforter, I shuddered: nuzzled further and
further away from Hade's Cliff while dirty red talons scratched and
clawed for purchase. It CRAVED my trembling soul. The wall's massive,
particle-board hand abruptly SLAPPED me on the back, hard. I froze,
held breath as a ghastly demon finally scaled Hell's Breach and
crouched, still. It stared from deep, hollow eyes less than one arm's
reach from my own. A dog howled from a neighbor's backyard and the
I finally mustered up
the bravado to crawl out from beneath my heavy blankets, slip under the
bed and secure my gift. There it was, like a Tinkerbell spark in the
dark: squarecut diamond ring of elegant design. I showed it to my
mother the next day, describing my dream about Grandpa. She took it
from me, like the toy drum. I never saw it again.
toy drum and Grandpa's ring weren't the only things in my possession
she tossed out. I was artistically precocious: mostly drawing these
incredible abstract designs, alien creatures, and mazes. But also by
eight or so, wrote fantasy tales w/pencil on looseleaf. Years later on
my first Xmas vacation from college (which campus was a solid
thousand-miles-PLUS away from my strange, cold family), I asked Mom
where she stored my childhood whimsies. "I threw them away," was her
curt reply. She doesn't even know what time I was born!. "All I
remember," she said, "it was hot and muggy, and dark outside. Either
early dawn or dusk." And I don't have my original birth certificate,
either...but now with so many hindsighted years, I wonder: Did she
throw THAT away, too?
I have a re-issued birth certificate dated TWENTY YEARS after I was born. (My Mom claims the old hospital that stored my certificate burned down in 1955.) But this re-issue doesn't reveal my TIME of birth, just date, place and name! (Which name by the way is not my present one. Click here
to see legal proof of my name-change.) I felt ashamed for my family's
treatment of me, so desired for YEARS to have a new, full name. Finally
did it in 1996, never looked back.
once said that the gods and godesses (or "archetypes" as he coined it)
always find a way to manifest no matter how hard society tries to
suppress their ubiquitous spirit. In our modern day, they emerge
through electronic media: celebrities from movies, TV and sports. Also:
comic books. This theory adds a new layer of appreciation to my lonely
childhood. Were it not for those idiot-box cartoons that delighted my
soul as a tot, I would've gone hopelessy, permanently stark-raving MAD! Warner Brothers' "Looney Tunes" were my greatest enjoyment. So I'd like to unofficially declare Sylvester the Cat our Patron Saint of Neglected Children. Or Daffy Duck. (They were my two all-time favorites, but any Looney Tunes character will suffice EQUALLY well.)
Back to my plea: If an angel could so kindly rekindle my mother's memory of moi (Eugene Frank Catalano by birth), to tell her THANK YOU for that wonderful
Christmas book...and also for that LAVISHLY illustrated Mother Goose
Fairytales. Those exquisite, gold-gilt images so joyfully colored,
still shine brightly like Heaven's own vision in THIS mind's eye! And
in so knowing my gratitude, she may depart in bliss, and come to my
rescue. As a Guardian Angel to secure my victory, and that of all my
gay brethren. Nothing would make her happier! And so my prayer has been answered the very moment I request it here, in writing. Witness the miracle!
WE INTERRUPT YOU FOR THIS SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT
Before anyone takes offense, allow me this redeeming (and LIKELY) hypothesis:
Such a unique destiny as mine demands an equally
unique challenge, most important: a TOUGHENING of one's mettle. The
usual nurturing friendships would surely NOT fulfill This Mandate From
Up Above. I therefore extend my utmost gratitude to both my enemies and seemingly clueless friends alike, for having the GUTS to play this out: a most difficult role, albeit sacred and massively grievous.
"We have no enemies, only teachers." (Buddha)
"Love thine enemies." (Jesus)
WE NOW RETURN YOU TO YOUR REGULAR SHOW
Please view the following image of what I have titled "The SOMA Seven":
depicts 7 different oddballs out of two SOMA gay bars who have been
(and some day may AGAIN be) a danger to me.
The four people depicted
above AND the three below, are ALL close friends of Gypsy's
(*shudder*)! With friends like those, who needs ENEMAS, right?
Top image from left to right: Ron Hennis,
bartender at the Eagle Tavern. Look at those eyes: what do they tell you? VAMPIRES EXIST! To
learn the dirt on Ron, read "30 Pieces Of Silver" and "The Mistake You Made". Both are chapters from my "Larkin Chronicles" BTW, which gave birth to this Friendly Ghost adventure I'm now writing.
Dennis Wallo (front),
customer and former friend. We met at the Eagle around 11 months ago. I
was MOST impressed by his boundless knowledge of ALL spiritual belief
systems...truly genius! Unfortunately, he is totally CAPTIVATED by the
Black Arts, and was used by Gypsy in a (fruitless) attempt to deflect
my outrage, and muddy my ASTUTE observations. Dennis "wallows" in some
pretty dark muck!
Dennis lives in a classy RV,
complete with fridge, TV, stereo, DVD player, and
Buddhist/Hindu/Catholic/S hamanic art decorating the walls. Darn it, I
should have photographed his vehicle when I had the chance! I think
I'll mosey on down to SOMA where he often parks on Harrison Street
somewhere between The Lonestar and The Eagle...and take a pic of his
RV'S rear bumper. I mean, posting his LICENSE NUMBER on the web would
be most helpful! Maybe I'll have the photo up in a few days.
Behind him is Joe Cote, who
turned on me since I accused Gary Clayton of allowing speed freak
(red-headed bicycle street punk) Chris to violently threaten me. He
utterly FAILED to chastise Chris with a prompt boot out the door. Gary
tends bar at Hole in the Wall Saloon on 8th Street & Folsom. In
retrospect, I believe Gary PAID Chris to drive me out. Since our
falling out, Cote has been gossiping to EVERYONE who'll listen, in an
attempt to have me kicked out and perhaps even injured. As confidant to
my grievence against Gary, he decided to violate that trust!
These two bars (Hole &
Eagle) BTW are under the same ownership: a now-elderly interracial gay
couple (Caucasian and dark African).
As a consequence (or not) the bartenders of BOTH establishments are a tight clique...or should I say "coven"?
Then there's Gypsy (a.k.a.
"Pappy", "Arthur", and my all-time favorite: "scumbag"). Yes, there's
ALWAYS Gypsy. LIVING PROOF THAT SHIT CAN WALK. (Even more astounding: it TALKS sometimes, too! Will wonders never cease...woddan a MAZE ink woild!) Since they broke up my friendship w/sweetie Larkin, I can't frequent any
gay bar w/o Gypsy or cohorts snooping around my proximity. Looks like a
syringe in his clenched fist, but that's just the reflection off a beer
bottle. Synchronistic or what?
Bottom image from left to
right: Jerry is Hole in the Wall's evening weekday bartender. He was on
duty when a nighttime regular, Mike, invited me for a few rounds of
pool. He wound up drugging and mugging me. You can read about it in the enclosed Larkin Chronicles under article "A Handsome Mug".
I've concluded that Jerry and certain street thugs have an AGREEMENT to
split the costs of whatever valuables they obtain from skulduggery. It
was on one of Jerry's Tuesday night shifts, the crime was committed.
Gary Clayton is the Hole in the Wall's weekday bartender (Mon.-Thurs.), the one who did NOTHING when a speed freak LOUDLY AND CLEARLY threatened me with extreme violence.
Lastly is Chris Altman, ALSO
a bartender at The Hole. His jealousy over my friendship w/Larkin
inspired him to allow a customer's unruly dog to ATTACK me, and
consequently drove me out for complaining. You can read about that fiasco in the Larkin Chronicles under "Dark Mojo at the Hole". To cut to the quick, do a search on "Weekend bartender Chris A".
I dowloaded all pics from the
web site of either Hole in the Wall or The Eagle, but one ("Joe /
Dennis" which photo I took myself). That was the ONLY pic I could find
of Gypsy, but he's so unique in his seedy appearance the photo will do
nicely, thank you. Besides, I've come up with an absolutely PERFECT
description of Gypsy (oh how I despise needing to write and speak his horrid name so often):
"A cross between Yosemite Sam and Colonel Sanders".
I described him like that to
an acquaintance, Eric (former cab driver of Korean descent, occupies an
SRO at the Twin Peaks Hotel, one block west of the notorious Lucky 13
and Metro bars. (Heck, they're ALL "notorious" as far as THIS little
pup is concerned. Should go w/o saying!) Several days later, we cross
paths again, and he remarks in gales of laughter: "Your description of
Gypsy really nailed him to a T! You said I'd know who he was right off
I had informed Eric that Gypsy barbacks at the Lucky 13 Sundays and
Mondays, at night. He often stands in the doorway, smoking a cig. (I'm
sure he'd positively love to smoke THIS fag, too!)
HERE'S THE KICKER
As I suggested earlier, Siddhartha's declaration, "We have no enemies, only teachers," I take to heart. And in so doing, have conjured up my OWN 21st-century makeover specifically for GAYS in my essay, "NeoPositivity".
If you haven't read it yet, I STRONGLY recommend you do so NOW. Your
very LIFE and TRUE HAPPINESS depends on it. It will also--as a secodary
benefit--clarify my approach to life as a gay activist. And help you
understand MUCH BETTER, my ideas expressed herein. AAMOF, you'll be
like a ship without a rudder in ALL aspects of your life until you DO
read my brilliant essay. (No false humility here, I assure you!)
GREAT THING this gentle philosophy implies is that NO ONE is actually
out to "get me". They ALL play a Goddess-designated role for my
betterment. This mean my parents (and brother) were DIVINELY INSTRUCTED
to NOT go easy on me, that I may fulfill my destiny...as much as it may
GRIEVE them to honor This Sacred Command. For in being raised in an
unhappy family, I became highly motivated to seek SPRITUAL
FAMILY among my gay brothers here in San Francisco. As well as REACH
OUT to gay homeless people who've suffered even more family dysfunction
than I've EVER experienced. And--like a Bodhisattva Warrior descending
into Hell to liberate agonized souls--embrace them and pull them back
up with me, out of the muck and mire of human detritus and misery.
Likewise my SOMA "enemies". I believe that life holds many precious secrets that are ONLY revealed---one by one--when you sorely EARN the right to know each particular (and sacred) truth. And my incredible-long-suffering starting from earliest childhood has RIGHTFULLY earned me this new-found knowledge, a Fountain Of Wisdom for my gay brothers first, everyone else second.
As you most likely know by
now, I've just about run out of ink for my printer. And since it seems
I'll be unable to connect to the Internet for the forseeable future, I
can't even order more ink cartridges! (Not that I can afford to
until the first of next month...and if rent control for all of
California is abolished, as will most likely happen in a ballot some months from now...my
monthly rent will JUMP from $310 to $750, leaving me with barely enough
for food...forget about eating out or even COFFEE, let alone printer
and other computer expenses).
If you care to subsidize my efforts a bit, you can pursue the cartridge situation by reading the enclosed article,"The Agony & The Inkstasy" and do what needs be done to OBTAIN the necessary cartridges and snail-mail them to me.:
Tom, PLEASE e-mail all *.zip
files I mailed you, to my four other e-mail friends listed above,
including my phone number which is:
415-Counter march and right about.
Heck, if anyone can afford to
send me an entirely UPDATED computer in the form of a wi-fi friendly
LAPTOP (preferrably w/Linux fully installed instead of Windoze), I'd
GREATLY appreciate it. I understand that DELL has just such products. One can't fight this Information War effectively, w/o a functioning laptop out in the field. A good soldier merits good ammo. Hey, nice EQUIPMENT there, buddy! (Factoid: "There are no heteros in foxholes".)
As usual, once I start to
make a MAJOR breakthrough, I am SABOTAGED and derailed. But being a
true disciple of Buddha, I am far less upset, than amused. It is all a
delightful game if you so choose to see it that way. And in so seeing,
I save the souls of ALL my enemies, even the most VIRULENT, and gain
them as beloved amigos and amours. They make me into a magnanimous hero by playing the role of My Greatest Adversaries.
I am hoping AND praying that
my two remaining ink cartridges (one color and one black) will
miraculosly continue to print PERFECTLY for the next 8 days: sufficient
to complete ALL my "Friendly Ghost" chapters. In the spirit of Chanukah
(when the empty oil lamps CONTINUED TO BURN for eight more days), I
wish YOU and those whom you adore, a very JOYOUS holiday season withOUT
KKKristian arrogance of any stripe!
Ezekiel J. Krahlin
Queer Visionary Extraordinaire
9:06 AM NOVEMBER 24: Please DISREGARD my bone-shaking alert at top of
document. I can once more access the Internet, and all my vital
CyberArsenal. What a spooky little trick played on me, eh? Though it
DID serve a good purpose, renewing my APPRECIATION of this global
communications sysem that mimics telepathy so remarkably well. (AND it made for some pretty intense writing, did it not?)
But let's not rest on our olivers...oops, I mean "laurels";
consider this a DRILL for the possible (even probable) day when I
really WILL be under attack, arrested and/or isolated in some other
devious manner. Now, I gotta REMAP those links for my ZekeBlog, remove
e-mail addresses and my telephone number, and post This Incredible
Fourth Chapter Of The Friendly Ghost Detective Agency. Whew! (I was
just about to PHONE you, Tom, were I not able to go online this
morning, after crashing a few hours from an excessively overworked,
all-night streak of impassioned prose.
PS: Yes, I like my brain chemistry, too, Eleanor. I am unabashedly cock-a-hoop. BTW, my mother sang WWII war songs to me as a baby, instead of the usual nursery rhymes. Her maiden name is Anna Elizabeth Gerrie, born in Brooklyn, 1918.
Mom & Dad, 2004
CAISSONS GO ROLLING ALONG
1st Lieutenant Edmund L. Gruber
Over hill, over dale, as we hit the dusty trail,
And those Caissons go rolling along.
In and out, hear them shout, counter march and right about,
And those Caissons go rolling along.
Then it's hi, hi, hee, in the field artillery,
Shout out your numbers loud and strong,
Where'er you go, you will always know
That those Caissons go rolling along,
That those Caissons go rolling along.
In the storm, in the night, action left or action right,
See those Caissons go rolling along.
Limber front, limber rear, prepare to mount your cannoneer,
And those Caissons go rolling along.
Was it high, was it low, where the hell did that one go?
As those Caissons go rolling along,
Was it left, was it right, now we won't get home tonight,
And those Caissons go rolling along.
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Allies: New chapter! Time to download the updated Larkin.zip.
(Delete the previous one.) Thanks!